Forward

i want to go forward
but i dont know why

i know i want to stay
because of love and regret
but the ones i should love, i dont
and the ones that shouldnt, i did

why do i even want to go forward
for who?
for what?
for me?
what did i want to achive?

what i say is what i should say
whats not said is what i want

i know i cant stop
but i cant find a reason to rush
if i go slow i will fall
then what?


damn rambling again
dont mind this post
its what happens when i wake up and take a long bath

today was cloudy with a slight rain
got 8/10 for math quiz
buzy, but it feels just right...

Thought

i should be sleeping
dis is wat happens when u have acces to unlimited intrnt

esk nk gi wat akaun cimb
hrp2 cek dah dpt
ckup la nyusahkn parents beli laptop bru

am i a gud friend
even i know that im not
i hurt people dat would never hurt me
i am more hypocrite than malaysian politicians
i even do thing never to be forgiven for

but when you reach a certain level of hypocracy
add a little lonelyness
a pinch of carefree
and a spoonful of kindness in the heart
and you get
a lier who lies to himself so that everyone else feels good

the plus; people like you, many friends,etc
the minus; you dont like yourself, you wont even know who you are, etc
but above all,
ur happy
in a wierd way

a friend of mine is suffering deeply in his heart
nothing that i do will affect him(my fault)
what others help him(if they did) also gave no effect
some others(most of them) caused his condition

if this keeps up
i may not clear my biggest thorn-in-the-heart
for he may be lost
and with that i will be extremely sad
it means nothing to him what i say
but it is my only way-to write

if you know this blog exist
if you still recognize me
please
live

if you lost something dear to you
it means
you will recieve something better

MSU dihatiku

finally jmpe internet
dah 2 minggu dah kt msu.
arini first time blaja
sronok gak...

hidup msu:
asrama di okla
beberape belas km dri msu 2 sndiri(2 jam jln kaki, dah try...)
sblh 2 ade McD
die mcm dok apartmen la...ade 3 bilk..
aku nyer umah ade 2 org je[pttnyer 8] n slebihnyer msuk arini[bdk jpa]
heharapla diorang bebaek..

ckp psl baek...
sume bdk batch aku ebaek..
Skim Plajae Cemerlang kan..
yg paling otai pon lah yang paling baek..
yg paling nerd pon[aku la] yg bersocial dgn bbdk otai[seemingly]
bdk ponpuan pon sng ckp ngan aku..
orientasi abg2 2 sume bebaek[interesting]
Kumpulan orientasi aku "Felis Domestica"
happening gile group 2
jmpe ex zul lak dlm kmpuln 2...
n ketue group aku la yg mng anugerah plg trlibt[aku x contribute pon]

kt umah slalu aku try lepak dgn umah bebudk yg "otai" ni
diorng social gile
jurang sosial xde pon
yg klik pon mcm 'open klik'[sesape bleh join]
slalu aku lepak si2
n aku slalu blaja soft skil dgn diorng[ini ditekankan olh pres MSU]
aku blaja rubix cube[dah 3 kali siap]
aku blaja jugling[x maju2 pratice 24 jam]
aku blaja maen snuker[kene puji 'ade akat']
dan selebihyer

tpi sini kene byk gak blanje..
kos hidup di shah alam scare statistiknyer tinggi
makan sehari rm10[kalau mkn 2 kali je]
duit biasiswa pon blom msk
dah 120 dah aku abeskn
huhu
quote;"I will survive"
i hope...

anyway
intrnet is a hard find
ade kat library..
tpi blom dpt kad id lgi
so xleh gi lelame[aku je yg ckp cmni]
n sume org ade laptop
xde pon wireless kt asrama 2[wisma Majlis Agame Islam Slangor]
tpi kt McD ade[byr rm5 utk password]
pc kt library die block facebook, myspace, friendstr.....etc
biala
nnti dah jmpe CC btol nnri aku update...

most of my friends dah msk u dah
minggu lps santa n manjong msk
Gudluck you'alls
blaja leklok ye...

dahla 2
nk bwat nota previous klas
smoge kite jmpe lgi dgn teknologi internet
Gambate n Happy Wednesday!

"sume org 'genius', cume 'genius dlm ape?"
quoted by Amin at sdar...huahahaha