I have a problem

I am supposed to wat medical checkup for nk msk MSU...
Then jiran aku pulak kate alang2 aku nk pegi, bwk la ank die skali...

Anak die ni pompuan...
Bkn nk kate die hodoh ke, die lawa(i think so)
Cume, disebabkan seluruh puberty aku dihabiskan di sekolah laki,
dan kali prtame aku jmpe pompuan sejak puberty is in form4
itupon utk kem...
So i have dis huge shyness with girls...
I think that everytime girls se a guy near them, they will think:
"ape jeling2?!", or
"hot nyer aku...",or
"laki ni nak ngorat aku ke x?!"
Its like every men must act 'balak'ish with every women...

Even worst, medical checkup 2 dah la kene tnggu pnjang...
Orang biase akn rase untung gile...
Leh dok dgn pompuan lawa, anak jiran, stil single, n kenalan kekecik...
But i dont...
Aku xnak.....
Xkn nk ckp kt die aku xnk gi ngan die sbb sgan kot?
Nnti die pk aku ni ske die or someting,
n parents die pk betape cilakak nyer anak misri 2....

*i hate things that is pushed on to me..
**but i like things that is offered(hav choice to accept or reject)